Apologies for the lack of posts…Life has been pretty crazy since my surgery on 11/20.  I have a few blogs on my YouTube account with more in-depth discussion about the process immediately preceding and following the surgery.

In any case, yesterday I got on the scale at the weight center, and came in at 315.8 pounds.  To many, that’s a number they’d never want to see.  For me, it’s an incredible success.  Since June 25, 2013, I’ve lost 102 pounds, 67 of which I’ve lost since my surgery on November 20th.  To say that I feel great is an understatement.  My mobility is 100% better, my breathing and sleep is improved, and my mental health is under control.

I have hope.

This process has not only been rewarding, but an emotional revelation.  I lived in fear and shame for years.  I fully believed that I deserved to be miserable, that I was unworthy of happiness, and that an early grave was my destiny.  I don’t want to imply that this journey has been without its difficulties, because that’s far from the case.  It took a long time for my strength and energy to come back.  I have trouble drinking enough every day.  I forget to eat.  That’s a strange one.  Before, I couldn’t stop eating…Now, I’m rarely hungry.  There are foods that give me trouble, and there are days where I feel awful because something isn’t sitting right.  Crushing pills made me gag on a daily basis.  None of that matters in the long run, though.

So far, so good.  I’m even feeling better about how I look.  Many people seem to make this a focal point in their decision to go for surgery, and end up disappointed.  That was never the endgame for me, so I consider it an added bonus.  Clothes fit better (or worse, for the bigger items) – I’m down 3 sizes on pants so far!  It’s been about 10 years since I weighed less than this, so I’m excited to keep it going.

In conclusion, I’m hoping to update more frequently going forward.  I know I trend to say that a lot, but I’m going make a concerted effort to stay on top of things.  In addition, I should have some before and after pics soon, so stay tuned, and thanks for reading!

-Scott