Hey everybody, sorry once again for the long time between posts. It’s been a difficult time for me the last several months. My fiancee and I moved, my father had some serious health problems, and my depression and anxiety took a nosedive. With regards to the blog, a week turned into a month, and with every passing day I became more terrified of posting new updates. In addition, my therapist and psychiatrist both moved out of state, and their replacements were poor fits.
I know I’ve said this before, but anybody that thinks this process is easy or a “quick fix” is full of shit. Physically, I’m doing so much better than any time since high school, but I’m still the same person mentally and emotionally. While I’ve made progress since my last post, I’ve stalled quite a bit and put some weight back on (not much, but even a few pounds is demoralizing). My habits are worse than they’ve been, though I’m taking some steps to correct that.
In any case, as things stand now, I’m down to about 250 lbs, 178 down from my high, and 133 since my surgery on 11/20/13. I still don’t feel like it’s enough, and I’m still not thrilled with how I look. I have a ton of loose skin, and even though looks weren’t my concern going in, I won’t lie that there are times my new body irks me. Regardless, it’s still miles better than being 420 lbs.
I’ll leave you with some before and after photos. The before photos are from 11/19/13, the day before my surgery, and the after photos are from my 1 year surgiversary.
Thanks always for reading. I plan to be more consistent in my updates going forward, though I can’t promise my brain will cooperate.